I’m here just to pour my heart out. I’ve been busy and haven’t written anything all this time. I’ve been struggling with the lemons life has been handing out to me, and trust me juggling these lemons are no less than juggling lava balls.
Have you ever felt empty? I’ve been feeling empty for a long time.
Have you ever been confused about what you are feeling at the moment? Ofcourse you have. But have you felt nothing in the moment where you have to have a large wave of emotions starting from the sea of love.
That is a little part of what i’ve been feeling. I’ve been having vivid thoughts in my mind. I’m thinking about so many things at a time that even i don’t remember what i started thinking about and on what thought i realized what i’ve been thinking about something i don’t even know all this long. I just stare into oblivion and get lost in my never ending invisible thoughts. Yeah i’m on the verge of losing my sanity, i’m batteling my silent battles with the loudest cries which are inaudible to any human in existence.
Anyone who hear these cries declares me insane. I got so many questions to whom nobody has the answer to.Am i just a normal human being going through another phase of life? Is this a phase of life? Or is this what being depressed feels like?
I’m just tierd of faking. Faking smiles, faking emotions, faking happiness… I’m just a human, how am i supposed to conceal my feelings? I’m like a volcano who’ll burst any moment now.
This is my loudest cry for help. I want someone to hold me, and tell me things will be fine. I want to holdonto someone who’ll make me believe in this human race again, and won’t vanish into thin air leaving me in the clouds for me to hit the ground.